now that i'm losing hope

my parababies are so grown-up! they were so amazing acoustic today, the smiles that i kept on getting were genuine, as was the huge one on my face. they were great, hayley has such a beautiful voice, and the boys are great musicians. and the show later was amazing, zac kept on smiling at me because i was rocking out sidestage.

waiting outside from 9:45-4 was not really worth it, especially when cunts cut the line and tell me a sob story that made me ask why they aren't where they're needed.

OH, THANKS FOR LEAVING US YOU FUCKING CUNT.

forgive me i'm trying to find my calling, i'm calling at night

be thankful.

i really need to talk to someone, but i can't talk to the person that i need want to talk to. i feel like crying constantly, i feel so empty. you're all that i think about, and its driving me crazy.

this song is so beautiful. write one for me, please?

i can't wait for january.

i've done something terrible, i'm terrified to speak

"dedication takes a lifetime, but dreams only last for a night" thankyouthankyouthankyou for playing that tonight, you don't know how much that song means to me, and being able to sing that on the barricade was amazing. and you saw my smile, and yours back to me were so genuine. don't blow up, please. you boys need to stay my secret, you're mine, all mine, and i'll be so sad if you're all over trl and mtv.

i love my girls. a nice drama-free night without the skank. what goes around comes around sweetie, and its starting to come around to you for fucking with all of us. none of us can stand you anymore, you lie to everyone and you're a whore.

i think i'm really sick.

remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall?

i don't know if i can trust you.

i'm so confused. i feel like crying.

thankyouthankyouthankyou. i can't believe that i finally met you, and i couldn't tell you anything that i've wanted to tell you for almost 4 years now. i got so nervous, maybe next time i'll be able to tell you how you've inspired me so much.

its
all
falling
apart.