see, I'm trying to find my place

can't even stay away for a year. i keep running back, it's my comfort zone.

the past year has been crazy. been in a magazine, movie, and a commercial- it's finally falling into place. in june i lost someone who i greatly loved and admired, who made me into the dancer that i am today. now, every step is for her. i began taking harder classes, did the highest level of a dance convention, and began pushing myself further than ever, all to make her proud. i have no real friends. i finished my degree, but i do not want to teach, so i'm starting all over again this fall. a clean slate.

parents are in marriage counseling, finally. they're trying to work it out for my brother, if they divorce it will destroy him.

i was cut off, financially. trying to find a job is incredibly challenging, i just want something with better pay and benefits.

still hopelessly single. i really hate it, i've felt so lonely lately. i've also cut myself off from my friends. l and c just want to party party, and i'm not into that. and i grew sick of being the only one able to buy alcohol. haven't seen them for awhile, along with e and r. i've seen some friends recently, but i just don't want to see anyone anymore.

it feels good to be back.