change will come

i feel like i have nothing left to say. i've been keeping less bottled up, and speaking my mind more, which has led me to depend on this less and less. over the past 1.5 years, it became almost a crutch, a place for me to let it all out, with no repercussions. i think i finally realized that as an adult, sometimes i do need to speak my mind, otherwise things won't change, and they may need to. i don't know if i'll delete this blog, or keep it around to look back, and also as a safety blanket, a place to turn to if i need it.

i'm 21 now. so close to being an adult, and i don't want to be, at all.

things are changing. something big for me is happening on thursday, and hopefully it will give me exposure. friendships are changing, school is changing, i'm changing.