as far as you're concerned, the next breath that you take should be underwater

you. who the fuck did you blow to get up there? you're disgusting, and i hate you and all of your friends.

i'm sure they were all pissed at us for getting in way before them, and all because we made a new friend, and didn't have to blow anyone.

today was magical. amazing bands, and a pretty much private area to meet people, uninterrupted by fangirls, it was lovely.

and seeing max bemis from say anything walk past us, taking off his shirt?! holyfuckingshit. his pants were sooooo low, and it was pretty much the hottest thing ever.

awake and unafraid

reconnecting with someone that i haven spoken to in 5 years. i was head over heels for him, got over him, and now he finds me of all people on facebook. its strange how he finds me the first day he has the profile, and no one else. and he hasn't changed a bit.

smoking again. all for you bden bby. its starting to scare me with how much i'm obsessed with you, i joke a lot, but i'm starting to scare myself.


"if you mess with me, then you will have to answer to my friends" don't fuck with my friends, ever. you asshole, wait until saturday, you will get fucking abused by a bunch of girls.

hey, come back to me

stop confusing me. whatever this chick is, you're with her, and yet you continue with the pet names... i hate you right now, you asshole =]

i don't want my babies to get huge. last night was fun, just standing in the middle of an nyc street with them. and singing with greta was amazing. ths are the perfect way to start off my summer.

warped is going to be crazy. yelling at ftsk, cobra stalking, haiiiiii beckett, sidestage for alesana- could it be any better??

stay right here, i'll be back for you someday

seeing all of the pictures and videos from the shoot are just rubbing salt on the wound.

174/175 right now, lightest i've been in awhile. i'm starting to skip meals again, i think my ed is coming back, but i'm not doing a thing to make it go away.

you called me sweetie. these pet names are just killing me. and you looked damn good today.

honey, I think that i'm friends with bands? lmao. take a look in the mirror, you're talking about yourself. i'm not friends with any bands, i just have a great connection to one.

for what its worth, it doesn't hurt, don't cry.

i'm so upset right now. we get kicked out of the video shoot, the fucking TRAINED DANCERS who had confirmations, and yet those fucking bitches stayed? who lied about their age and snuck in??????? this is so not fair, i want to cry, throw up, and kill someone. this was supposed to be my video, my moment, not theirs. i was supposed to show off and get noticed, launch my career, not get sent onto the fucking street.

easily one of the worst days ever.

thank god it wasn't a video for my favorite song, otherwise i'd be in even worse shape right now.

live young, die fast

the new alk3 cd is so amazing. no matter how much i love my fbr bands, alk3 will always be my favorite.

you're power-tripping you cunt. calm down... unlike you, i have a job and a life outside of the internet, so i can't devote as much time as you can, and i forget to reply to my messages. don't flip out on me. i'm thisclose to saying fuck you and quitting.

thank god i still have this blog to write on, otherwise i'd go mad.