you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

i've felt like such a failure lately. most of my friends are in happy, stable relationships. they have amazing families that i know i am a part of. they're getting engaged, married, pregnant, and giving birth to healthy, adorable babies. they have great jobs, getting their feet in the door of their field, or at least have a job.

where am i? single for 22 years. no boyfriend, never been kissed, never been on a date. my family is in pieces. i don't want to pursue what my degree is in, and my job is terminating sometime in august. i don't know what to do anymore. i don't know who i am, or what i want.