you were the only face i've ever known

omg, so drunk right now, its amazing. vodka is my biffle. i need to sober up in a 1/2 hour.

been thinking a lot lately about how i'm in over my head at school. too many credits, ancient culture is killing me.

that boy. god i hate him. but i think i love him. he is the only boy that i've ever felt so strongly about.

calling ME a whore? honey, talk about pot calling a kettle black!!!!!! at least i don't need to blow people to get what i want, and i can dress for my body type.

i want to be more than a phonecall at 4am

won m&g with my boys. they must love me by now, haha.

one of my dogs is so sick, my poor baby.

id theft fucked my day up big time.

you can almost see the wizard behind the curtain

i'm scared. i've been dizzy non-stop for almost a month now, and i'm constantly getting headaches. my short-term memory has become non-existent, along with my attention span. i'm really scared of what could be wrong with me. maybe i need to see a psychaitrist, i dunno. i'm just so scared because i've never had problems like these before. the memory thing is the most terrifying because i will go to do something, and immediately forget what i was supposed to do. i may remember it 5 minutes later if i think, but its hard and scary. this isn't supposed to be happening to a (almost) 21-year-old.

thanks boys for the fabulous early birthday gifts- foile a deux 14 days before my birthday, and the december cover of ap? all you guys gotta do is come back to nyc, and things will be perfect.

my boys soon. i need them, i need to harrass them and have mr. ross be a creeper and stare, haha. i love them though, i need their show to cheer me up. my panicversary is coming up soon, 2 years since i first saw them live, and 3 since i heard the cd and fell in love.

you're an angel, you little devil

my alk3 show was the greatest night ever. i was barricade, they played "i lied my face off", "crawl", and "this could be love", and omg, just so amazing. i sang every word and had the biggest smile on my face. the show was drama free, and none of the cunts were there, that was lovely.

i've lost ftsk for good, and it makes me insanely sad. i miss being sung to on the barricade, and being recognized, i love them, and they're no longer mine.

its been fun, we were fucked up and numb

i'm just so depressed. all i've been doing is sleeping, and i haven't done any work. and stress eating, oh boy today was bad. 2,500 calories of mcdonald's are in my body right now, and it feels gross. i miss the power that i had from not eating. simply amazing. not like i ever lost anything, my body is so fucked up.

i just feel so hopeless. with my family life, friend drama, and of course, boy drama. i hate that i can't find a boy, and i'm too shy to speak to anyone.

i need my alk3 show. drama free, and amazingness will occur.

breathe out, so i can breathe you in

last night was amazingly epic. I SAW THOSE LOOKS MR. ROSS. bden spilling his beer and being a cute little drunk. both of us rocking out to rock band and singing along to 90's songs 'cause that's how we roll. and both of us singing along to "everlong"? simply perfect.

oooh tonight. so you're back with her, but yet you guys still fought.