where do i go? gimme some sort of sign. hit me with lightning, maybe i’ll come alive

its been forever. that wonderful job was temp, so it ended. i found another job that i thought was amazing, but realized how very wrong that i was. i got fired from that job. got fired. that's something that i never thought would happen to me.

it was like being in a vacuum. all i heard was "today is your last day here", and everything shut out. it was like i was in a hole, in a dark room. it took all i had in me to not cry, and listen to the details that i needed to hear. i'm glad i didn't cry, i didn't grant them the satisfaction of seeing me cry. its more shock than anything else. you feel like you're alone, just stuck, and you don't know what to do. you go onto auto-pilot. march back to your desk, you gather your stuff, and you go home, and then now what?

i've been rejected by an industry that i worked so hard to get into. i don't know what to do, or where to go. i don't have enough experience, i don't have the right experience. i don't know what to do, and it's killing me.