you want me to forget you - okay, forget me too

i don’t know what to feel anymore. i feel like a goddamn weirdo being upset over this. we were never together, never a thing - why do i feel like a lovesick teenager?

i feel like a shell of myself. i miss the person that i used to be. 

don’t paint me black, when i used to be golden

it’s fun getting your heart ripped out. okay, i’m being rather overdramatic here. it was always lust, but this still hurts. i wonder if things would have been different if i met you earlier. 

and i wonder if you’d take it slow

i hate mixed signals. are you flirting with me, or just being a clueless boy? it sounded like you were flirting...am i reading too much into this? most guys won’t say that to a girl unless they’re flirting with them...but you’re not like most guys, you’ve never been.

it’s a duality. i want you, but you don’t want me, you’ve never wanted me. and the one person that wants me, i don’t want them.

i’m just sick of being alone. i’m getting desperate. the only attention i get is from someone that i’m not attracted to at all. i keep trying to push them away, but then they come back. am i being superficial? absolutely. but i can’t change who i’m attracted to.