help me, i'm choking on the inside

i wish i was happy. i wish i was thin- not skeletal (although that would be ideal), just at a healthy weight (120-130 for my height). i wish i was doing better in school. i wish he liked me, that he had a myspace so i could stalk him, that i know what to say to him. i wish i could talk to people about something other than dance, that i don't feel so awkward and out of place. i wish i had friends that don't treat me like shit (wait, i take part of that back- i wish i had more than 4 friends that don't treat me like shit).