i want a coin operated boy

'sup boredom. i bought some more chuck palahniuk books today, can't wait to start reading them.

was that you sleeping on the couch in the library? i wanted to see if it was you, but i was afraid to. you're the reason why i sit in the library reading my chuck palahniuk books, i watch you out of the corner of my eye. oh god i'm a fucking stalker.

j is now being stalked by one of the republican boys from the other night, i feel bad for her.

i feel like i'll never go anywhere in life, i feel so hopeless. i've gotten so fucking lazy, i have all these papers to write and that fucking spanish project to do, and i just don't do them.

my ovary huuuuuuuuuuuurts. goddamn pcos.

i never thought that i'd live to see my 19th birthday. i doubted that i would see 17, and 2 years later i'm still afraid to keep on living. i almost cut myself today, but i stopped myself.

i may be dancing in the christmas show, a girl in the show doesn't know the store-clerk dance and if she gets kicked out of the show by v2, then it messes up the groups that he made, so i'll probably replace her. i'm happy, i hate watching the show every year and not be in it because of stupid shit (last 2 years- school, this year- my timing).

Finish the sentences:
1. I've come to realize that... i've lost all hope
2. I am listening to... "backstabber"- dresden dolls
3. I talk to... my bests.
4. I love... him.
5. My best friend(s)... are the only people that understand me.
7. I lost... my happiness
8. I hate it when people... are assholes.
9. Love is... something that i will never experience because no guy will ever love me.
10. Marriage is... a fraud.
11. Somewhere, someone is thinking... about purging their food (i actually want to right now).
12. I'll always be... a fat loser.
13. I have a crush on... him.
14. The last time I cried was because... i was listening to sad songs and being overwhelmed by emotion.
15. My cell phone... is a cameraphone.
16. When I wake up in the morning... i wish that i didn't wake up.
17. Before I go to sleep at night... i think about him.
18. Right now I am thinking about... the pain in my ovary.
19. Babies are... adorable, and i hope to teach them someday.
20. I get on myspace... every single fucking day.
21. Today I... went to class.
22. Tonight I will... do some work.
23. Tomorrow I will... go to ballet.
24. I really want... someone to love who loves me in return
25. The person who's most likely to repost this is... someone that i don't know.